Overjoyed!

Well...

My support (according to my numbers) (which could be inaccurate or not utd) is at $3435! (thank you excel for formulas :] )

And my countdown is at 17 days, 13 hours, 54 minutes, 9, 8 , 7, 6, 5 ,... ect.

eep! i am soo excited!

(i think i have a bug bite or something. my arm is itching like crazy!)

anyway. my mom knows i've got this blog. but knows that nobody reads it (yet?) and makes fun of me for it...
but, its no easy thing to let the world know what your thinking. for me especially.
and especially my mom... thats besides the point.

i need to finish up getting my supporter's email list together and i think i'll let em in on this.
just so they can stay updated if they so care to be...
which is rather embarrassing because my relationship with most of them is... business like? not a "hey! hey take a look at my blog" kind of relationship. so if you are one of afore mentioned people: welcome to... uhh. the real me?
[i dont like saying that because it makes the other me sound fake. which its not. just different. responsible. professional. uses correct grammar and punctuation. :P my apologies if thats going to drive you crazy, its easier for me to be real without.] here i am again writing to people who are still only hypothetical...

went through the older posts and deemed them readable. so have at it with the older stuff (although there is not much)

God has been working in me over the past couple weeks [in which i have been consistantly praying, reading my bible, and journalling :D ] its been challenging. difficult. sometimes it seems unrewarding, but i know in the end it will be! thats part of the lesson He has been teaching me. i think i've been "disappointed" in some of my times reading, because i dont FEEL anything. i would expect this great, fabulous, emotional, moving experience with god during every time of reading. which, although does, and surely can happen, is not the constant and should not be my motivation or expectation for each devotional. by Him depriving me of that aspect for a little while, i've come to see that that is not the important part. [and actually is incredibly selfish... because its still all about what I"M feeling. or what I"M getting out of it... DUH] so i continue to pray for strength and dedication in the area of getting in the word. i know he is ready and willing to teach me. i just need to be open and willing to listen!

SLEEP TIME!

awoohoo! im excited to go to sleeeep :D

oh my.

so i'm sitting here. watching mamma mia :D 

joseph was bugging me to write, so i am :] and what better time than while im watching a total chick flick/musical :P

just checked the countdown: 25 days. 14 hours. 30 mins. 19 secs. and counting...

OH MY GOSH! less than a month! i absolutely cannot wait! 

i have no idea what to expect! i think thats what gets me most... 

having some faces [via facebook] is extremely... helpful? fun? exciting! gives me somesort of visual!

but i haven't actually talked to any of them yet... which is STUPID! 

and i have no idea why. 

so much for my outgoing and adventurousness. 

okay. like i was saying before. 

i have no idea what to expect. 

which probably should frighten me, but rather its enticing and i kinda just wanna know what its gonna be like! 

im going to miss home. i know it already. 

its an anticipatory miss, like i know i wont be here so im already missing home.

i guess not missing it already, cause my anticipation overrides that. 

im going to miss him... <3>

wow. im way to scatter brained to write anything coherent or all-encompassing my thoughts at te moment. so i give up. 

but what it comes down to: IM STOKED!

Uh oh...

It's been MUCH too long since I've posted! 

Soo... BIG NEWS!

I"M ACCEPTED! But now thats sorta old news...

I got the email on August 26! Since then I've been writing up my support letter, with much help from my beloved mommy! Trying to work on a budget, and trying to actually wrap my mind around the fact that I'm actually going! Its only... 

four months and a couple days from now... 

FOUR MONTHS! OH MY GOODNESSS!

Pray that I can get everything together in time, pray that I am spiritually ready and focused now and as I am there, more specifically now. Also, I pray that I can spend my time now wisely with friends and family before I leave. And pray that I get my homework done this weekend along with my letter and application for funds from church! <3

HURRY UP ALREADY!

So my application was sent in July 25th. Its been almost a month and I have yet to hear anything back from them! I just sent and email to Minnesota which is where their offices are in the States.  So hopefully I'll be hearing from them soon. Not only am I anticipating getting confirmation that I can go, but I really need to know so I can start making plans and getting things figures out here! Money raised, college plans figured out, whats happening with Snickers... ect. I want to know! And my moms been bugging me about it ALOT! 

I just sealed the envelope. The application is finished! 

I know, I know, finally...

More than Expected

I'm sure my mom will say, "I told you so!" But i haven't really comprehended all that is going to go into this. There's like so many factor that I have yet to think about. And even stuff here at home that has to be taken car of. 

I don't know if its still naivety, dreaming, or denial, but I'm still not stressed about it. I've been getting Jackie's emails from Australia and it just makes me jealous that I'm not gone already. It just feels so natural to go... I'm not sure how to explain it. 

I had like a melt down yesterday. I apologize to you guys at church. Just stress piling up. I don't even know what. Just lots going on. Yet here I am at 11:00 babbling on and talking to people online. Go me! 

 

Last day of summer classes! Remind me never to take them again! But I took them so I could go to Peru and not miss the 2nd semester :] So I am not to regretful... 

Work! Oh my! Thats still a strange thought for me... Go in on Saturday. I like the idea of money. Again, this has to do with Peru! As I hope to fund most of my own trip. Dad's job is still unknown and even if it was certain, I still would love to be able to do this myself/with help from supporters. I don't mind working. Which is something I have come to realize lately. This is entirely hypocritical and probably doesn't fit with the realistic me. But I don't like just sitting around not doing anything, especially if I'm supposed to be doing something. i.e. at work, or during princess duties. I think thats going to come in handy down the road. Just a God-feeling that thats a gift he's given me in order to do more for Him. 

I should work on my application... As my mother has said it needs to be sent out tomorrow. I love her. But its annoying :D  Off to do more crucial things. Goodnight.

Once upon a time...

Perú, Perú. My beloved Perú.

It's an odd sensation to be in love with a country to which I've never been. But that is the only way I can describe this feeling. 

I started filling out the application today. Which means this is not quite the beginning of this whole adventure, as much thought and time thinking about it has come before now. But the genius blog idea just came to me right now. 

Anyways. Filling out the app, made it real to me. I've been talking about going for some time now, actually. Telling every one about my fabulous idea, listing off my list of goals. My parents just gave me permission to go a week or so ago. But even then, it didn't dawn on me that this is plausible, something that is possible. But going over the questions, was like "Wow. It's like for sure. For shizzle that this thing is gonna happen." 

Its daunting. Scary even. But I have this immense peace about it. Well, I'm sure much of it is peace, and much of it is naivety and idealistic, unrealistic, dreamy expectations. Although I in no way shape or form expect it to be easy, or "dreamy" by any means. But I guess its still kinda far away for the nitty gritty to really take root. 

And now my communications homework beckons me, as I still have life to live ahora.