I just sealed the envelope. The application is finished! 

I know, I know, finally...

More than Expected

I'm sure my mom will say, "I told you so!" But i haven't really comprehended all that is going to go into this. There's like so many factor that I have yet to think about. And even stuff here at home that has to be taken car of. 

I don't know if its still naivety, dreaming, or denial, but I'm still not stressed about it. I've been getting Jackie's emails from Australia and it just makes me jealous that I'm not gone already. It just feels so natural to go... I'm not sure how to explain it. 

I had like a melt down yesterday. I apologize to you guys at church. Just stress piling up. I don't even know what. Just lots going on. Yet here I am at 11:00 babbling on and talking to people online. Go me! 

 

Last day of summer classes! Remind me never to take them again! But I took them so I could go to Peru and not miss the 2nd semester :] So I am not to regretful... 

Work! Oh my! Thats still a strange thought for me... Go in on Saturday. I like the idea of money. Again, this has to do with Peru! As I hope to fund most of my own trip. Dad's job is still unknown and even if it was certain, I still would love to be able to do this myself/with help from supporters. I don't mind working. Which is something I have come to realize lately. This is entirely hypocritical and probably doesn't fit with the realistic me. But I don't like just sitting around not doing anything, especially if I'm supposed to be doing something. i.e. at work, or during princess duties. I think thats going to come in handy down the road. Just a God-feeling that thats a gift he's given me in order to do more for Him. 

I should work on my application... As my mother has said it needs to be sent out tomorrow. I love her. But its annoying :D  Off to do more crucial things. Goodnight.

Once upon a time...

Perú, Perú. My beloved Perú.

It's an odd sensation to be in love with a country to which I've never been. But that is the only way I can describe this feeling. 

I started filling out the application today. Which means this is not quite the beginning of this whole adventure, as much thought and time thinking about it has come before now. But the genius blog idea just came to me right now. 

Anyways. Filling out the app, made it real to me. I've been talking about going for some time now, actually. Telling every one about my fabulous idea, listing off my list of goals. My parents just gave me permission to go a week or so ago. But even then, it didn't dawn on me that this is plausible, something that is possible. But going over the questions, was like "Wow. It's like for sure. For shizzle that this thing is gonna happen." 

Its daunting. Scary even. But I have this immense peace about it. Well, I'm sure much of it is peace, and much of it is naivety and idealistic, unrealistic, dreamy expectations. Although I in no way shape or form expect it to be easy, or "dreamy" by any means. But I guess its still kinda far away for the nitty gritty to really take root. 

And now my communications homework beckons me, as I still have life to live ahora.