Overjoyed!

Well...

My support (according to my numbers) (which could be inaccurate or not utd) is at $3435! (thank you excel for formulas :] )

And my countdown is at 17 days, 13 hours, 54 minutes, 9, 8 , 7, 6, 5 ,... ect.

eep! i am soo excited!

(i think i have a bug bite or something. my arm is itching like crazy!)

anyway. my mom knows i've got this blog. but knows that nobody reads it (yet?) and makes fun of me for it...
but, its no easy thing to let the world know what your thinking. for me especially.
and especially my mom... thats besides the point.

i need to finish up getting my supporter's email list together and i think i'll let em in on this.
just so they can stay updated if they so care to be...
which is rather embarrassing because my relationship with most of them is... business like? not a "hey! hey take a look at my blog" kind of relationship. so if you are one of afore mentioned people: welcome to... uhh. the real me?
[i dont like saying that because it makes the other me sound fake. which its not. just different. responsible. professional. uses correct grammar and punctuation. :P my apologies if thats going to drive you crazy, its easier for me to be real without.] here i am again writing to people who are still only hypothetical...

went through the older posts and deemed them readable. so have at it with the older stuff (although there is not much)

God has been working in me over the past couple weeks [in which i have been consistantly praying, reading my bible, and journalling :D ] its been challenging. difficult. sometimes it seems unrewarding, but i know in the end it will be! thats part of the lesson He has been teaching me. i think i've been "disappointed" in some of my times reading, because i dont FEEL anything. i would expect this great, fabulous, emotional, moving experience with god during every time of reading. which, although does, and surely can happen, is not the constant and should not be my motivation or expectation for each devotional. by Him depriving me of that aspect for a little while, i've come to see that that is not the important part. [and actually is incredibly selfish... because its still all about what I"M feeling. or what I"M getting out of it... DUH] so i continue to pray for strength and dedication in the area of getting in the word. i know he is ready and willing to teach me. i just need to be open and willing to listen!

SLEEP TIME!

awoohoo! im excited to go to sleeeep :D